I am so weird sometimes people think I'm weird - LN

I crave a ♥ so deep, the ocean would be jealous & I'm in love with Lutfil Hadi
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Sorry //
Friday, 27 May 2016


For 19 years, I have never felt this shitty about myself. Yes, I have my insecurities but never like this. Never have I ever cried for not feeling pretty or beautiful. But you, the one who I thought I could count on, who I trust, who I love would make me feel like this. I don't know if this considers as hurt and disappointment anymore.. maybe i'm not worth it. So I am sorry I wasn't up to your expectations, i'm sorry I'm not as pretty, as beautiful. I am sorry..

P/S: I really thought we could be stars. 

Untitled //
Wednesday, 16 March 2016
       There comes a time in life when you meet the person you never expect the meet. The person who gives you more than a thousand various feelings, a person who you least expect would matter. I remember the day I first laid my eyes on you and believe me, I didn't know you would matter so much to me this very day. Is it wrong to crave for someone this bad? Is it wrong to feel sad and then happy in just a blink of an eye? You my dear, give me a hell of a roller coaster ride filled with feelings and emotions. I never thought I would need you so much, love you so much and care for you so much. I know lately we've been fighting and arguing.. I am truly sorry for all I have done to you. I know how much it must have hurt your feelings. I know we had a rough start of March, maybe it's due to finals and stress and all the feelings a human could feel but know that it still won't change the fact that I love you and I will never cease to love you. Knowing you has been a privilege and if it means getting my heart broken by you too. I chose you and I believe that you chose me too. I pray and I wish that all we've planned happens. Eu te amo LH

Why I need.. //
Tuesday, 1 March 2016
Reasons I need you:

1. To push my chair.
2. Chase cats away because I am one chicken shit who are terrified of cats.
3. Motivate me to study when I am a lazy bum
4. Tickle my feet
5. Give me hugs and kisses.
6. Smile for me because I love your smile.
7. Buy drink for me when we're at the cafe.
8. Give me your jacket when its cold/hot

 To be honest, all of this don't matter.. I'm just kidding.. why do I really need you? Because you're everything I have ever longed for, you're literally everything to me. Therefor;

9. Love me
10. Be with me forever ♥ 

p/s: theres so much more but I can never finish stating them.
But most of all, I need you because you complete me in so many ways I never thought you could.

Joy //
Tuesday, 9 February 2016

// ♥ //

If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be how I am today. At one point of my life, I was at the very bottom. I was sad and grumpy. I was Grumpy from Snow White without a beard lol. You came and brought nothing but joy. The feeling of having you around, the feeling of being yours, the feeling of being able to call you mine is just indescribable. People may feel like I'm overly attached to you or you're overly attached to me.. it doesn't bother me at all about how they think about us. All I know is, your parents and mine are okay with it so it doesn't matter what other people think anymore. Maybe I haven't known you as long as others have known their partner or whatever but I swear time or duration doesn't matter because I feel like I've known you for a long long time. I know I can be hard at times, I know I'm not an easy person to be with, to cope with but you.. You're the only one who can actually take my craps, my annoying-ness, my childishness. Besides family, you're the only human being who would go thru hell with me and thank you for that. Thank you for always supporting me. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for sticking by my side in good times and also the worst. I thank God everyday for you. Right now, I have a handful of friends that I can trust and I'm proud to say that you're a friend that I can count on, you're like a brother I've never had, you're like the prince who saves the princess from the dragon or something hahahaha. You're the guy I never thought I would end up with. I hope, I wish and I pray, you're the one I wake up next to every morning in the future, you're the one I go shopping with, you're the one I share my blanket with and you're the one I share my life with. I love you and I always will.

Full of crap //
Monday, 28 December 2015

I don't know if things would be the same but I got a good feeling that you know what type of person I am already right? So you can leave if you want because I'm always gonna be me and its never gonna change. I'm fucked up so leave. I mess things up, I'm sensitive as hell and I guess no one can take it so I'm not stopping you to walk out. Plus, if I sulk, you're not even there. Whats the use of us then right? Don't waste your time okay? Adios.

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